i'm working on 2 songs in my brain at the moment. one about moving on from someone that you shouldn't be with and another about being with the person you should. kind of interesting that they are both revolving in my head at the same time. the first is nearly done in my head, which is understandable considering it's been a long time coming. the second is more intimidating because it's very scary for me to wonder what it would be like if i really had someone in my life like that.

excerpts from both:
song one: "spent so many lonely nights hopin we could get it right but all these hopes and all these dreams won't be enough for me"

song two: "i'm not quite sure i love you, but i'm pretty sure that i want to"

strange

my mind has been racing as my heart isn't quite sure what to do with itself. changes have been constant, just like heraclitus said. everything has been better lately. i have felt more myself than i have in years. it's not to say that there haven't been tough moments. but overall i have been smiling from the inside. it's unsettling because i seem to have found something that i've been looking for and i'm afraid that i will mess it up.

strange

old parts of my life are falling away, but i don't feel like i'm missing anything. or anyone...